5 April 2007

Thanks girls for the wedding compliments. Yes, I was young. I was 18, Nick was 21. We were young, but so ready and it's the best decision we could have ever made.

Well, yesterday I got some flowers planted. Jamie and I had a blast. We didnt get nearly enough flowers though. I just wasnt sure how many, or what to get, or where I was putting them so I didnt get much. Next pay day I will grab some more. I stuck to red, white and blue flowers for out front. The flowers I got for out back I decided to put on the patio instead. So I still dont have flowers out back yet. But its ok, I got plenty of time. Its going to be cool this week, so I will wait until next week to get more and that is pay week anyways.

I will post some pictures here of some of the flowers we planted. I planted red tulips around our tall charlie brown tree but forgot to take pics of those. I will next time. Here are pictures of a Dwarf Shrub that blooms little white flowers on it, a red climbing rose bush, some other red flowers in the big pot, and red, white, and blue petunias. There is also something popping up from the ground, I guess from the people who lived here before us. Whatever it is, I like it! I have more pics, but dont want to overload you with flower pictures. So, I'll same more for next post.

Today is my doctor appointment. I cant wait to see the doctor. Im sure everything has passed. I had just barely any blood yesterday and so far today there is nothing. My BBT has dropped to AF low's, so Im going to keep temping to watch for my Ovualtion. Then after I detect O, I know AF will be on her way 14 days later. Then its on to BABY MAKING TIME AGAIN! WHOO HOOO! I'm so exicted and cant wait to get this show on the road again!

Im going to start going tanning today as long as the doctor okays it. I love the tanning bed. It so relaxing. Its like meditation for me. I always fall asleep and come out to refreshed and relaxed. Plus I look 10 times better with a tan!

I will update later after seeing the Doc today.

2 April 2007

Well, our favorite donor that gave us a baby for a short time, is not available until June or later. As you know, I cannot wait until June or later for my BFP. So we had to decide on a donor that was available. We decided to go back to the donor that we used previously for our 2nd home AI, and our 1st IUI. I was very disappointed at first, since our favorite donor was very much like Nick. Then I thought, which ever donor gives us a baby we will love just as much, it doesnt matter. And maybe our favorite donor didnt work out for a reason. I'm still kinda bummed about it, but I have to keep reminding myself, we will love the baby no matter what donor we use.

So I called this morning and ordered our vial of sperm fo rour next try! I really cannot wait. Im excited to try again and get a sticky BFP. I know it will happen.

These few days have been emotionally rough on me. Not just because of the miscarriage, but also becasue I miss Nick so much. I am so exhausted at night, all I want to do is sleep. But I get into bed and toss and turn so much that I get so frustrated and start to cry because I just want to sleep. I miss him so much it hurts. We only have 2 1/2 months left. You would think that by now I would be used to it. By now, I can sleep easily without him. But I cant. Everyday its harder and harder.

But, this too shall pass and soon enough I will be in the two week wait again, and Nick will be home.



Today it was 86 degrees out. I took Roo out front on the leash and tied him up to the tree. He was loving it! I hosed down our patio chairs, and put mulch out around the tree. Im going surround it with flowers on Wednesday. I cant wait to get started. I would have gotten started with it today, but my friend's daughter wants to help with it. Im going to take her for the day on Wed, and we are going to plant all sorts of flowers. I cant wait to see the finished product. I will take pictures and post them when its done.

23 March 2007

Yesterday, 2 times, I got brown spotting. I still had a little bit of brown spotting this morning, not as nearly as much as yesterday. I read it happens in up tp 70% of women around this time in pregnancy. Its brown because its old blood, and it happens from the placenta and embryo burrowing into the uterine wall.

I am confident things are fine since there is no red blood or cramps. I called the doc anyways, the doctor that did my IUI 45 minutes away ( I couldnt get through to the doc here on base ). The IUI nurse said that their protocol is to do an u/s to check the heart beat at 6-7 weeks, then turn me over to my OB here on base. I didnt know that, noone told me. So on Monday I have that "orientation" here on base, then Tuesday at the IUI clinic I have my first U/S FINALLY! I will be 7 weeks and 2 days for the u/s. I cant wait! How am I ever going to make it through the weekend?????????? HURRY UP!

Pink?

or blue?

Yesterday I bought 2 bags of dirt and 2 bags of mulch. I got home, and then realized that isnt going to be nearly enough. I need ATLEAST 2 more of each. I wanted to get started on it today. Pull the weeds out, shovel up the old mulch, put down new dirt and put down new mulch. But, Nick insisited, because of the brown spotting, that I take it easy today. I know he's right, so I only pulled the weeds. Its 83 degress out now and I so want to go outside and get working on our flower bed, darn it. But I wont, I will take it easy until I get my ultrasound and the doc says everything is ok.