5 March 2008

Sorry its been a while. We did move into our house on Monday and we just go internet hooked up today, and I have MY computer now! I don't like Nick's laptop at all. The only problem is, is that I don't have all our current pictures on this computer. I have to wait until Nick transfers them on to here before I can share them with you. I cant wait to share them with you!

Our house is great. Its smaller than what we are used to but we like it. It is only one floor. Houses are only built with 1 floor here and a very flat roof to protect it and you from typhoons. We only have 1 bathroom which we aren't used to at all. But what makes up for those 2 things is 1) its a remodeled house and 2) the kitchen is great! We got all new appliances...stove, fridge, dishwasher, washer and drier. All brand spanking new. We have a nice front yard that I have plenty of room to do up real nice. I even planted coconuts already out front so I can grow palm trees. 3 of them and I'm working on a few more once I find more brown coconuts laying around the neighborhood.

So far, we are in love. We love Guam. Everything about it. Well, OK, except maybe the shopping for clothes really SUCKS! I really need new clothing with my waist line growing already. Yes, already. Looks like I'm going to have to resort back to shopping online which stinks cuz I don't know what size I am anymore. We went to 3 malls, all the clothing stores are meant for petite Asian women. I even went to my favorite store, Ross and found not 1 single thing. They had about 10 pairs of old lady shorts and aisles FULL of jeans. What the heck? Who's wearing jeans in GUAM??!! But other than that..Guam is amazing. The beaches are amazing. The water is so clear and clean and blue and warm. And you can swim with the fishes! Nick got pics of them with his underwater camera case. ( THANK YOU MOM AND DAD!) I even found hermit crabs on the beach. Its all so beautiful. I've never seen anything like this place. Europe was beautiful but in such a different way. Im afraid pictures just wont do this place justice.

Anyways, Yesterday we entered into the 7th week of pregnancy. This is the scary week for me only because my last pregnancy I miscarried at 7w1d. But this time feels different. I feel pregnant unlike last time. My boobs are huge but not sore. My pants don't fit in the waist. I'm hungry. I have had no morning sickness and hope to be one of the lucky girls who never get it. I've had a lot of CM which I read is normal since the mucus plug is forming. My last pregnancy, I felt nothing at all. Tomorrow is our first ultrasound. I am so scared. Nick is so confident, but I am scared. I just want the best. We need this baby.

1 March 2008

Sorry for the delay in blogging lately. I promise it will get better very soon. Lots going on here.

First I know you wanna know how the pregnancy is going. I think so far its ok. Still, I worry so much but then I think about how I been feeling and then feel better. My pants don't fit anymore. Only my strecthy ones fit. I am only 6 weeks and 4 days today so how is that possible? My boobs are huge. I mentioned last time that I was in D but now, I think I'm falling out of that. Crap. I'm still hungry. Not as much as before, but still hungry. I'm not peeing nearly as much as I was. So that has subsided again. No morning sickness, no feeling crappy or tired. I did have a headache yesterday but I think that was from the bright sun.
We have our first ultrasound on Thursday, 6 March. I wanted this appointment so bad and now that its scheduled Im so scared to go. The what ifs pop into mind and the experience I had last time all comes back when I think about it. So I try not to think about it, or I try to think the best.
So what do you all think??? ONE baby or TWO babies???

We got me a car. Just a little Guam bomb car to get around. A 98 Mazda Millenium. It will do. We are thinking about in a year getting me a new car.

Last Wednesday we looked at 2 houses on base. The first one we checked out was horrible. I walked in and felt like it was a depressing cave. The 2nd house we looked at we said yes right away. We didnt even get to see it. The lady gave us the floor plan and it was the exact same layout as our sponsor's house. We couldn't look at it because it was being cleaned but we took it anyways. Yesterday we got to go in. We took some boxes over and explored our new home. Its smaller than the other houses we have had but it will do. We like it. The kitchen is wonderful, the closets and cabinet space are endless! We move in on Monday. We wont have all our furniture though. We get loaner furniture from the military until our stuff gets here. We do get our unaccompanied baggage, if you remember me talking about that before. Its a small amount that we had shipped here early. Pots and pans, clothing (that probably wont even fit me anymore) shoes, blankets, sheets...just the stuff we need to live with. And from the time we move in it takes about 48 hours to get internet. So I might have to disappear again.

We got some pictures but I don't have time to post them right now. We are about to be off to breakfast, then drop some things off at the house and off the BEACH!! WHOO HOO!! Hopefully I don't look like a freakin whale. Oh well, as long as this baby is healthy.

Until next time!!

24 Feb 2008

Gesh, Its been about 5 days since I posted. Please forgive me. I've either been too tired to type or out exploring. Nick is playing his video games on his PS3 now so I have time and a little energy to spare to update you all. So much has happened in the past 5 days. I have to much to tell you all!! And a slide show to share.

First I know you are all wondering how the bean is doing. We haven't had an ultrasound yet. We go on Tuesday to enroll me into Tricare here on base. Then we will find out what we need to do to get into the doctor on or around March 7th. I will be almost 8 weeks by then. Things are going great but I still worry and wonder if everything is progressing as it should be. Nick is very sure that everything is fine from the symptoms I been having lately. My last pregnancy I had no symptoms. Tomorrow we hit week 6. The past week I have been absolutely starving. I mean, I cant get full. I'm hungry all the time. My pants are tight in the waist. Summer shorts and pants that I wore very comfortably or loosely last summer, are tight. I desperately need to go clothes shopping. I have to pee 2-4 times a night and because of that (and the 15 hour time difference now) I cant sleep. I was constipated on the plane here. Not fun. And my bobs are huge. Yesterday we went out and Nick forced me to buy a nice bra. I didn't want to spend 25 bucks on a bra. Can you believe a freaking FULL 36 D?? WTF? Wow. Also just about every day, either part of the day, sometimes all day I feel so bloated! Like when I was on the IVF injections. Bloated- like I feel like a hot air balloon! So because of all this Nick is confident things are well. But, I always have that what if in the back of my mind.

Now, about Guam. Wow. This place is amazing. This really is paradise. I cant believe we live here now. I told Nick, I don't think I will ever want to leave. Hes going to have to pry me out of here. Yesterday we went to the beach near our hotel but only for 45 minutes. Nick burns easy and we didnt buy him any sunscreen. The water is like bath water. It was cold at first because there was a breeze going but after you got in it was so warm. It was so clean, and clear and blue. Not salty at all like the beaches in the states. Palm trees with coconuts everywhere. The local people are really nice, happy, relaxed and helpful. Its live we are living a vacation.

Tomorrow we get to pick up our cats from quarantine. We worried about them for nothing which I knew was going to happen. We get to visit with them everyday, bring their favorite treats and food and Pooh Bears favorite brush. The first day we went to visit them, they day after we flew in Roo was so ticked off and mad at us. So much so that it was just so funny and cute. As soon as he saw me he started his meowing. The meowing he does when he looking for me around the house. I went into their kennel and he rubbed on me a minute then realized he was mad and started growling and wouldn't let me pet him. Then he would rub and love on me and the get mad again. It was so funny. Today he was his normal self. Pooh Bear just seems as if nothing happened. I cant wait to have them back.

We are still living in a hotel right now. The lady at the housing office said we wont get a house until middle of March because there is no funding to fix up a house for us. The stupid thing is, is that they are paying us $229 PER DAY(!!!!) to live in this hotel. The hotel cost plus meal costs since our room does not have a kitchen. So they are out of funding but they are paying us way more to live in a hotel?? Somebody cant do math. The lady said we would get a call Monday or Tuesday to let us know. I just want a house to call home. I want my things, I want to be able to cook my own meals, I want my own bed. Hopefully some funding money will fall from the sky and we can get into a house sooner rather than later.

Well, thats all for now. I'm tired. This time change is killing me sleeping schedule. I heard it takes a god week or 2 to adjust. Its incredibly tiring. Plus I have to pee now. So until next time friends, I leave you with a slide show of our first 3 days here in a magical paradise.

Feb 19 2008

I don't feel much like blogging. I'm tired. There is alot going on here so I'm going to get right the point, I know I know...boring. Here are the details of my day.

Nick took the cats to the airport in D.C. at 3 am this morning. I took it much better than I thought I would. I didn't get upset or cry at all and I thought I would have a breakdown. I did my best for this little bean growing in me. I don't want to cause stress in there. Its so weird not having them around and much weirder knowing they are so far away from us and without us. They will be Hawaii even before we are even in Texas. I hope and pray they will be just fine and recover fast. I have included a picture of them from a few days ago.

Here is something off topic, but I had to include it...
When Nick left at 3 am I just layed in bed trying to go back to sleep. At about 4 am I hear outside in parking lot, "HELP, HELP, Officer Help!." So I go running to to window and right directly out front there are 4 cops walking a handcuffed (trailer trash, sorry for using that term) girl to a police car. She must have been so drunk or high. All she was saying was, 'Come on man, please man, come on man, just loosen them, they are too tight man." It was halirous. The cops searched her and found drugs and I saw them put the drugs on top of the trunk of the cop car. Then they were trying to talk to her but I couldn't hear them. Then she said,"I just want to go to bed man, Im tired." And the cop said, "Oh trust me, we will give you a bed." At that point I was laughing so hard I had to call Nick and tell him what was going on. It was like a scene from COPS. It was great.

Now for that part you all been waiting for...
When Nick got back he couldn't wait to find out the results from my 2nd beta test. I was going to wait unitl lunch time to call. So I called early thinking the results weren't in. I was wrong. The 2nd beta test results are...............a smoking 327!! This indicates baby is growing right on target. I do feel a little better but still have bad thoughts in the back of my mind. I imagine that these thoughts wont go away until he/she is in our arms. Now we wait until March 7th...our first ultrasound. I say that after that I feel better, but really...I don't think that I will. I think I will always worry about something going wrong. Im so thankful that Nick is confident.

Well, Im not sure when I will get back on the computer after this. We leave tonight, or tomorrow morning at 2 am to check in at the airport by 3:20 am. We have to drive across the water to Norfolk. Our flight leaves for Texas at 5:20 am. We have a total of 24 hours flying time. But it will be so worth it!
Not sure when we will have internet. We get a house within a week of getting there then probably a few days until we get internet.

So folks...off to paradise to live my dream!!

Oh, one more thing. One of the girls from NW wrote this for me. I must have the best support team out there! THANK YOU!!!!!!!
Lil bean please stay
nestled in your mommy's tummy
where its so cozy & warm
just until you've grown
into a healthy lil baby
then your welcome to join this world
Believe me,It'll be worth the wait
you'll have so much love
& all the warmth you'll want
nestled in your mommy & daddy's arms.
Bless you both & your lil bean.

16 Feb 2008

On Valentine's Day Nick came back to our hotel room with the most perfect card and my favorite snack, a bag of BBQ kettle cooked chips. Yum.


All day long I was nervous as can be, and as scared as could be. I kept debating,"Should I test before my blood draw", "do I look at the test or let Nick look?"

Later that night Nick begged me to test. At that point I had decided I didn't want to test until after my blood draw to prepare myself for the worst news possible.

We had 2 pee tests. I had a dollar store test, a First Response and an EPT digital. Nick wanted me to do all 3 at the same time. I took the sticks into the bathroom, peed in a cup and then did the dollar store test. It was a blond moment and I was scared. As soon as I did the dollar store test I dumped the cup of pee in the toilet. I immediately realized what I had done. Nick was mad. So I gave him the test and walked away. I told him not tell me. I jumped on the computer to occupy my mind.

Not even a minute later, from the bathroom Nick yells, "How dark does the line have to be." I immediately knew he saw a line. I told him it doesn't matter, a line is a line. He walked out of the bathroom, test in hand, face all red and said I wish you would have done the other tests. I went over to him to see the test and to my surprise, this is what I saw....


I said, Holy crap, Happy Valentine's Day. After that, I don't remember. I know I drank a lot so I could pee on another stick. And an hour later this is what we saw...


We decided to use the last test for the next morning before my beta blood draw, and this is what we saw...


My beta blood test results were positive, with a beta of 118. My doctor said I am pregnant. Then I called the IVF clinic and the nurse said I am pregnant. She wants me to call her after our ultrasound on March 7th to let her know if it's 1 baby or 2.

And that folks, was our Valentine's Day 2008. We are now praying this baby sticks. Im very happy but very cautious.

Now for some words from Nick to all my pals,

Thank yo everyone for the congratulations. For those of you that have not seen your BFP yet, I know how hard it can be to see others succed and keep a happy face, while you try so hard. It has been so aggravating over the past 5 years to see others have their magic day. That sometimes its hard to truthfully be happy for those that it has happened for.
Thank you for the support you have shown Michelle and myself. It has been a long road. The IUIs, the deployment, the miscarriage, the moving, the IVF, but it has all been so worth it.
Its like 5 years of pain, my surgerys, the money issues, the failure issues have all just been washed away. We get to start a new life in 5 days in a new world, WITH MUCH more to look forward too.
And I thank each and everyone of you for getting Michelle thrugh this. Without your support, advice and encouragement, I dont know if Michelle would have made it.

25 March 2007

Here are pictures of the baby ay 7 weeks. I am 7 weeks today! Nothing new to report. I still feel good, still dont feel pregnant since Im not experiencing anything out of the unusal.

I cant wait for my orientation tomorrow and ultrasound on Tuesday!

23 March 2007

Yesterday, 2 times, I got brown spotting. I still had a little bit of brown spotting this morning, not as nearly as much as yesterday. I read it happens in up tp 70% of women around this time in pregnancy. Its brown because its old blood, and it happens from the placenta and embryo burrowing into the uterine wall.

I am confident things are fine since there is no red blood or cramps. I called the doc anyways, the doctor that did my IUI 45 minutes away ( I couldnt get through to the doc here on base ). The IUI nurse said that their protocol is to do an u/s to check the heart beat at 6-7 weeks, then turn me over to my OB here on base. I didnt know that, noone told me. So on Monday I have that "orientation" here on base, then Tuesday at the IUI clinic I have my first U/S FINALLY! I will be 7 weeks and 2 days for the u/s. I cant wait! How am I ever going to make it through the weekend?????????? HURRY UP!

Pink?

or blue?

Yesterday I bought 2 bags of dirt and 2 bags of mulch. I got home, and then realized that isnt going to be nearly enough. I need ATLEAST 2 more of each. I wanted to get started on it today. Pull the weeds out, shovel up the old mulch, put down new dirt and put down new mulch. But, Nick insisited, because of the brown spotting, that I take it easy today. I know he's right, so I only pulled the weeds. Its 83 degress out now and I so want to go outside and get working on our flower bed, darn it. But I wont, I will take it easy until I get my ultrasound and the doc says everything is ok.

22 March 2007

6 weeks, 4 days pregnant

I am so excited for this month to be over. I cant wait for Easter which means pretty flowers all around. It was always one of my favorite holidays. My mom would always get my sister and I a huge basket full of goodies from candies, to clothes. The weather was getting warm and mom would start her yard work. I cant wait to get started on my flower bed. In fact, I might take a trip to Lowe's today just to check out what they have so I can get ideas of what I want to do. Im going to go all out this year so Nick can come home to a beautiful flower bed. And maybe we can get yard of the month! Today is supposed to be the first warm day of Spring and so far its the weather forecast says its going to stay this way. Its going to be 70 today and 78 tomorrow! WHOO HOO!

I am also excited for this month to be over so it's closer to Nick comming home. We will just have April and May and about 2 weeks of June! Can you believe its been 6 months since I blogged about him leaving? It went so fast, but there are days that I feel like it has been much longer. Today, it feels like it has gone by fast. I cant wait for him to get home and see my belly bump. Hopefully by then I will have a little something to show off!

3 more days until my orientation. It's on Monday, the 26th. I still cant believe I need an "orientation" to be pregnant. But, hopefully I will get some good information out of it and get to move on to a doctor. I will be 7 weeks and 1 day so I imagine I would be far along enough to start deeing a doctor shortly after the orientation.

Yesterday I got a package in the mail from Nick again. He is the best. I got a teddy bear mug, a little gray stuffed doggy, one of my blue nose bears that is holding a picture frame and Nick wrote on a piece of paper in the frame "you+me+baby=us". He is the best. And he wrote a letter. He is so great with words, he doesnt write much so when he does it means a lot to me.

I also got a package from my mother in law, Baby's Grammy. She got for baby a pooh bear blanket I had on my baby registry from babies r us. ( Yes, I have a regisitry already! Im not crazy, just excited since I been waiting 4 years for this! ) The blanket is great, and if Baby is anything like Mommy, he or she will be sleeping with the blankey for atleast 23 years! LOL! Yes, I am 23, and yes, I still sleep with my baby blanket every night. Shhhh, dont tell anyone!
I've posted a pic of the blanket on here. It is incredibly soft and the edges and whole underside are silky. I love it!

I found a maternity shirt yesterday at a thrift store that says Mom on it. It was cute and dirt cheap so I picked it up. Theres a pic posted of that too.

21 March 2007

6 weeks, 3 days pregnant. 4 more days until my orientation..thank god. Time has been dragging by so slow. Nothing new going on here.

Remember those belly shots I posted a few days ago? Turns out, I was just bloated. Im back down to my normal size. I will take an updated pic when I hit 7 weeks on Sunday and post that.

Here's a picture of babys first christmas outfit I found yesterday. It was only 45 cents! And since baby will be here for Christmas I thought why not? So I bought it! I also picked up a bib for the same price. Click on the pictures to see them larger.

19 March 2007

I slept great last night, I really needed that.

Take a look at this short video of the size of our baby at 6 weeks. I cant believe that little baby is in me. I know i keep saying that, but its just amazing.

http://www.ehd.org/flash_one.php?mov_id=176

The embryo can now hiccup, jump, and kick and we can clearly see the nasal plugs.
The embryo has brainwaves by 6 weeks, 2 days!

Trips to babies r us since BFP-2
6 weeks 1 day today

another post 18 March 2007

Check out my pictures....

Here at 4 weeks and 4 days pregnant...


Here at 6 weeks pregnant...today


Notice the roundness of belly already? And the bigger boobs..already? Geez...and Im only 6 weeks...Is this possible ? Need I say more? I think not.
But as long as I and baby are healthy, I dont mind. Im going to enjoy this baby belly bump I have developing already.

16 March 2007

5 weeks and 5 days today. Its been 3 days since I posted, I know, Im slacking. 2 days ago I went to the beach with 2 friends, Virginia Beach. It was an excellent day. 80 degrees, no humidity. It was great. By the time I got home, I was so exhausted. I couldnt keep my eyes open of even lift a finger. I couldnt sleep though, my brain just goes like the energizer bunny while my body cant move from exhaustion.

I got a package today from Nick's Aunt Kim, that included a knitted baby blanket, sweater and hat. It is so adorable. I also got a slew of maternity clothes. She is so thoughtful. I have a few pics posted of the things she sent.

Not much else to report. No pregnancy symptoms yet besides being tired. I been napping 1-2 hours daily. A few times a day I get shooting pains in my boobs but nothing major.

I can't believe all the BFP's comming up on the NW boards lately. This month is only half way over and today, I think, the 7th or 8th BFP was posted!! I absolutly love seeing these girls get their BFP's they have wanted for so long. It must be the spring time air comming...or something. I have never seen so many in just half of a month. Im sure there will be more popping up too. A few more ladies sound promising. November and December are surely going to be busy months on the boards! I love it!

Nick has about 80 something days left until get comes home. I counted weeks, and if he comes home when we think he will, I will be about 18 weeks pregnant. Perfect timing. Just in time to find out if baby is a boy or girl, to start seeing my belly grow, to feel and see movements, I just cant wait. I cant wait for him to see me and my belly for the first time when he comes home. Its going to be such a sweet reunion!

13 March 2007

I got this teddy bear today in the mail from Nick. I hate to brag, or sound like I have a big head...but I really have the best husband in the world. For the past few years I been collecting these Me To You bears, or blue nose bears. Nick gets them for me for special occasions like Christmas and Birthdays, and now for being a mom to be. He's great. It's the most perfect gift.

Today is my mom's birthday. I sent her a card 2 days ago with a picture of my digital pregnancy test in it. I figued...heck...that's how I found how she got re-married...a picture of her and him in their wedding gear with no words written on it. How nice of her, huh? It saddens me. I havent heard from her in over a year...a year and 4 months to be exact. I wonder how she will take the news of being a Grandmother. I wonder if she will want to take part in it. I wonder if I will hear from her back.

On to better things, well...kinda. I have a headache today. I have read in a few of my pregnancy books that headaches can be a sign of early pregnancy. Im glad I have it. It signals my bean in me growing. So its fine with me. Bring it on. I had a migraine at 5DPO too, it was so bad I was hugging the toilet. I wonder if this is something I will have to deal with though out my pregnancy. If so, bring it on!

5 weeks, 2 days, gestational age 23 days. Baby today: The development that began yesterday continue's today: the baby's jaws are appearing, the lung buds are forming, circulation is being established in the mesoderm and yolk sac, the lining of the placenta is developing, the somites are forming. While the baby's physical appearance changes, it's size changes too- it gets bigger each day.

Well, I gotta get going. Got chores to do. Oh..I'm making BBQ ribs in the slow cooker today for dinner. I cant wait to dig in! I'm excited over it...lol. How dorkey.

12 March 2007

5 years ago today, Nick asked me to marry him. It was about 4 am in the morning, he had just gotten back to Germany after spending almost 2 weeks with me, and he was drunk. LOL! He one that lets emotions flow under the influence. I love it. I cant believe its been 5 years but at the same time I feel like it's been longer and I can hardly remember life before being married. I often wonder how I got so incredbily lucky to have him. It's amazing.

Today I am 5 weeks and 1 day, or gestational age is 22 days. Above is a picture of what baby looks like today, and this week. I cant believe that a little baby that looks like that is floating around my uterus. What a miracle life is. If baby's heart didnt start to beat yesterday, it will today.

Days 10-29. The developing embryo signals its presence through placental chemicals and hormones, preventing the mother from menstruating. During these three weeks, first the brain, spinal cord and nervous system are formed, the heart begins to beat and muscles, limbs, ears and eyes begin to show.

I just feel so lucky today. I cant get over it! I'm so lucky in life and in love. I cant wait until Nick gets home. We got half of March left, April, May and a little bit in June. It's going by fast and I hope it continues to.

Oh yeah...CONGRATS DRENA ON YOUR NEW PUPPY! I knew it had to happen for a reason. Im glad I get to see her again!

11 March 2007

TODAY: 5 weeks pregnant ,age of embryo: 21 days

The picture is what baby looks like now. I still have absolutly no symptoms of pregnancy at all.

Im waiting to feel something.

Baby's heart will start beating either today or tomorrow. The baby is an 1/8 inch.

9 March 2007

Here I am yesterday at 4 weeks and 4 days.

Let's watch my belly grow!!!

Today, 4 weeks and 5 days, the baby's fold of tissue that will form the head can now be identified and baby measures between .04-.06 of and inch.

Here is also a rug I bought today for baby's room. Of course, Roo had to give his approval first.

7 March 2007

I did my blood test this morning and got the results back. Doctor has confirmed, WE ARE OFFICALLY PREGNANT! It's so surreal, but now I can really believe it! Wow!!!

6 March 2007 *UPDATE*

I'M PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

6 March 2007 *UPDATE*

So Nick called me today and begged me to test. I said No. I told him if my temp is up tomorrow for the 18th straight day, then I would test. After I talked to him I watched a show where a couple had 16 children. An hour later I had to pee and I thought what the heck...why not? Just pee on the darn thing already and stop being afraid. If Im pregnant, I'll see the line, If not...then I will be prepared for AF to arrive.
To my suprise I saw what the picture shows at the top. There is a faint line.
The top test is the one I did today, the bottom test was the one I did 2 days ago.


I thought it was an evaporation line at first. So I took it over to Drena and Tina who confirmed they saw a line. I looked at Drena's pregnancy test from Ava, and it looked the same as mine. She convinced me to get a test done at the doc. So I called, and I went in...and they had me pee in a cup which I was NOT happy with. I wanted a blood test. I guess the nurse who ordered my test ordered it for urine. Grrrrr.

The results for my urine test was " Ma'am, your levels arent high enough so we are going to have you come back in and test in 2-3 days." Doesnt she know how frustrating that is?????????

So I decided to drive my butt over to the clinic and tell them I want a blood test done. I got it ordered with no problem at all. The thing is...the lab closed 20 minutes after I got the blood test ordered, so I have to wait until tomorrow morning. Then after I get my blood taken it will be a few more hours of waiting for those results.

So, she did NOT say I was NOT pregnant, and she didnt say I was. That's better then a BFN, right?

I will let everyone know the final knews as soon as I know.

I did go out to Walmart and I bought the clear blue easy digital, pregnant or not pregnant test. I got 2 of them, so I might take one tonight, 1 tomorrow morning. I also have 2 first response early result tests but I havent heard a lot of good feedback from those. I might just use those to confirm my BFP from the doc. Because I am positive that doc will give me a BFP! I hope..lol!
Wish me luck and sticky baby dust!

6 March 2007

Yesterday was a nice day. I went shopping at Ross and got a real cute pair of baby pants. They are blue with a yellow ducky on them. They were only $3.49 so I couldnt resist. I went to the Norfolk Zoo with Drena and the kids. They had a blast and I had fun too. It was a nice day to go, noone else was there. Then we went to the NEX at the Norfolk Navy base. That place is like a mall. We spent hours in there and I got a set of new pillows. We needed them really bad! Then we went to Appleby's and I got the best salad in the world. Oriental Chicken Salad. It was so good. So today Im going to go to the grocery store to get things to make salad. Im going to go with Ceasar salad this time, and Im going to make my own Ceasar dressing. Homemade is the best!
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/11e7b0 Here's my chart.
I am now in the 3WW-Today is 16DPO, and yes....my temp is STILL up! So that means AF will not be here again today. She is almost always right on time. I'm 2 days late, will be 3 days after today, and still too chicken to test. Can you believe that? What TTC woman is NOT a POAS-aholic? ME!!! They DO exsist! LOL!



If it's up tomorrow I might have the courage to test again. That would be 18 straight days of high temps. Im just so scared to test because I dont feel pregnant at all and I feel like I will see that BFN. I have no signs or symptoms at all. The only thing to maybe indicate a pregnancy is lack of my period for 2 days and high temps. Which are both EXCELLENT signs, but I still think I could see that awful BFN again. But then again, I could test and see that BFP and all this wondering would be over. But I'd rather have hope that I am pregnant then see that BFN and know that I am not.



I WANT MY HUBBY TO BE A DADDY! GIVE ME A BFP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!